Thursday, February 21, 2008

Unknown


I am coming upon a path that is unknown to me. My youngest will be entering Kindergarten in the fall. To think that all my babies are growing up is scary. I've been a mom to little ones for 7 years now. Tony and I agreed that if at all possible I would be home with them. And praise God that has been a reality for us. I've enjoyed every minute of it and don't regret our decision at all. But now with these days quickly coming to an end I feel so lost. I plan to be in the schools most of the week helping out in the classes, helping with PTO stuff, etc. But most mornings I will come home from dropping them off and find myself in a silent house. I'm very scared of this new event. People are constantly asking me what am I going to do all day? I feel all this pressure to know who I will be, what I will be doing. I feel pressure to run and get a job as saying oh I'll be staying home alone to clean and love my family by serving them sounds horrible. I have been praying about it, and I feel this peace about staying home and tending to house stuff that gets passed over as you take care of little ones. You know all those baseboards that should be wiped down or given a fresh coat of paint?! lol


I am earnestly seeking God's guidence in all of this. While thinking of all this, I was reminded by Lillian at how children seem to face the unknown head on at times. It may be a bit scary, but they know with us near-by they will be ok. I took this photo of Lillian the other day as she was on the trampoline, but she was unsure about doing something new. Here is the result of some guidence and now she enjoys it so much.

2 comments:

The Hulsey Family said...

How exciting for you! I know you have worked very hard for your family these last few years and hopefully this will allow you time for yourself as well as time for those chores that never got tended to! :)

Deanna said...

I think it's great that you still called to stay at home. Don't let other people pressure you, but continue to seek God's word and will. BTW, I find your blog very refreshing, and humbling too. Thanks for sharing!