Monday, October 29, 2007

Field Trip


Today Victoria's class went to our local pumpkin patch. She was very excited and talked about riding the bus days prior to the trip. It was a fun field trip as each child got to pick a pumpkin, learn about pumpkins, go through the maze and see farm animals. I took some good photos which is always a plus for those scrapbooks. But more importantly I got to spend time with Victoria outside of home. It was fun to see her relate to her classmates and how she still is so young trying to grow up so fast. As we were pulling into the school she started to cry. This is something that has been happening at school quite frequently. We still aren't sure what sets her off, but it is usually something so small that she makes into something huge in her thoughts. So today it was that I don't do anything fun with her. I am starting to see that these episodes are pointing to something deeper within her that she doesn't know how to communicate otherwise. I was able to calm her down and explain that only she and I went on the field trip that morning and her sister or brother didn't get to come. I think what she was trying to tell me is that she needs one on one time more often. Her other meltdowns have been how she misses Gabriel. And one other day she had somehow thought that only she was left at school and the rest of us went somewhere. Now even with three kids with three different classes, teachers and schedules, we have tried so hard to give that attention and time to each one. But apparently Victoria is needing more of it. So over the next few weeks I will be looking for ways to provide that for her. Maybe she only goes to the grocery store with me, crafts that we can do when others are gone and quiet time together before bed. I think that will help, but I will also be pouring my heart with fears, hopes and dreams before God. Only He can fill that empty place in her heart that she is feeling.

Thursday, October 18, 2007



I have finally found my grove again. Probably helped that I just finished up a crop at ScrapnCircle this past week. I am now hoping to be able to continue and get more pages done. I hope that whatever hobby you have, that you are able to spend a little time enjoying it this coming weekend!!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Wives

During my quiet time tonight I came across verses that I need to refocus on. I am in a spiritual unequal marriage. Even though my husband goes to church with me and encourages the children to learn and grow, there is still that part where I feel a separation. I have struggled with having married Tony even though I knew it was wrong based on God's word. God has shown me that I have never asked for forgiveness for being disobedient. And there has been guilt and shame from this. I do know and believe that God has blessed us greatly and only good can come from this.

God has reminded me again that it is my job to continue to be an example for my husband. And there are many times when I am exhausted and just don't want to. And for me, my example needs to come from the way I talk about people and my feelings towards his family. This is where our biggest issue lies and I have to remember that I am that example whether I want to be or not.

"Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your live." 1 Peter 3:1-2

I believe that God put these verses and commandments in the bible is because He knew some of us would be unequally yoked. I look at this as a chance to help do my part in helping my husband accept Christ. I can't make him do anything, but my actions can help close the gap either way.